Autumn in Agape

My first day back on the job after a long sick leave.

And I was greeted by a most beautiful sight. The floor was covered with fallen pink flowers. Ahhh... Is this how autumn look like? It is really so beautiful. And this was right here in Agape. I stopped short to stare at the sight.

This picture was taken only after work, where half of the flowers had already been cleared up to make way on the road.

Reminds me of some sappy romantic story scene.
(except for the banner at this point)

Happy Good Friday!

Trip to the Hospital

Such a cliche title...

One night I was rushed to the hospital. I was shivering from fever, dehydrated from all the vomiting, and all the symptoms of a viral infection. But it was bad. I felt my body rebel from the bumps and sharp turns my dad was making. Trying not to throw up, I clenched my fists.

I had been unwell all day and figured that as usual, it'll probably go away with some much needed sleep. I even left choir early to sleep all afternoon. I was wrong. My fever escalated. Any food or drink I took only came right back out. It only got worst - I don't remember feeling so wrong. So there I was being diagnosed. The half hour I was there, my fever jumped higher and BP dropped and all that. The doc was ready admit me to put me on drip. I was too sick to have an opinion. My dad decline the offer and asked for an injection instead to stop the vomit.

Nurse: "Please pull down your pants"
Me : What? Jabbing my butt? NO WAY!"
But of course I was in no position to argue.
*ouch*

Not long after that and after more consultation with my dad, I was again told to pull down my pants. She was going to stuff something up my ass to bring down the fever.
WHAT!! Is there no other way? I'm not about to have anything forced into my... ouch!

After over an hour at the outpatient ward, I was sent home with specific instructions and a pack of medicine. But the jab worked. I was feeling well enough to eat and sleep properly. And here I am sitting here, short of the 24hours watch I was suppose to be on, feeling much better. Let's hope it stays that way. I don't wanna have a tube pushed into my veins for whatever reasons. Right now I can barely breathe from the extra amount of mucus I'm producing. This is a bad week to be sick, with my boss in operation.
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After a quick bath, my fever escalated once again. And the night was hard battling the fever that peaked at 39Celsius. But it finally broke as at 4+am as the dawn was ushered in.

A visit to the family doctor revealed that it was simply a case of bad cold. (bad being an understatement) A blood test also revealed no signs of dengue. Thank God.

Yes, there is a difference between cold and flu. Flu has no cough and sore throat symptoms.

So here I'm sitting once again, hoping it'll all go away so that I can get back to my life.

Ruffles

I have a new favourite potato chip brand:

But it is SO expensive! Guess that's why they called it indulgence. hehe.

Pollitical Tidal Wave

The recent election is all anyone is talking about. The media is swarmed by the recent unexpected events in Malaysia. The world called it a Tsunami election when the nation chose a new government. The startling results of the election (where I voted in for the very first time) shocked the government and the voters alike. Suddenly noone knows how to react. Noone.

As the nation follows the new developments closely, you can too on MalaysiaKini

And I guess I don't need to add more about it. Every other blogger in the country has already talked about it. It's all anyone's talking about - young to old. Now we see some hints of a real democracy in the country (for the first time). Who knows what will befall us? The world is watching and excited to know... what now?

Emotional fill

"We're not really born to be happy, we're really built to survive." Christopher Hsee, University of Chicago, American Psychology Association Newsletter.

The article started by asking 'why don't we know what makes us happy'. Yea, why don't we? Why is it we have to sit and actually wonder what fills our cup? Shouldn't we know? Perhaps many of us are soaked in a culture of work that has us forgetting ourselves. Some people want too much, some people give too much. Where is the balance?

I cannot buy into the statement that we are only built to survive. Life cannot be just about surviving. Everybody wants to be happy. Everybody wants a life that has a meaning beyond survival. It's not just about having a smile on our faces or having a life without any problem or difficulties. That's just being naive. Life has got to be for more!

It's as if saying that God never meant for us to be happy. It's as if saying that God is an evil being that laughs at the very thought of us little human in our miserable life. And we know that's not true. We know God loves us more than anything else He has created and wants the best for us. Maybe being happy is not the ultimatum or the end result. As I said, life's gotta be about more than that. But why is it so hard to believe that we can be happy? That it is allowed?

One cell night

This is a story of something awesome that happened in my lil' ol' cell:
RKYC! You guys rock!

It was free cell and we taught it'll be the perfect time to talk about the heart of worship. I was beginning to feel that we were forgetting what it meant to really worship - the freedom to worship, the attitude we should bring when we worship, the sacrifices and praise that we should bring - I was afraid the youth didn't know that it was not just emotions.

So after all the games and fun, Aaron shared about getting desperate before the Lord. And I encouraged participation, desperation, and hearts to be opened. (can't remember what i said though) But what took place was unexpected. As we worshipped with hearts open and longing for His presence, God's Spirit fell in the room. They got lost in worship, tears streaming down their faces, whispering prayers on their knees. When His people are desperate for Him, His spirit draws near. It was most precious.

When was the last time you tried verbalizing what you really felt to God - all the gratitude, all the hurts, the deepest emotions towards God... out loud. Your walls will fall, your hearts will be too full to describe. When we talk about the attitude of worship, we're talking about the very essence of what it is made of - our hearts responding to all that God is.

We got them to pray for each other - a most intimate and personal prayer. We got them to talk about what they felt when they worshiped or when God was moving. And the experience was just astounding.

Tell me, don't you feel like you miss those moments you spent in the sweet presence of God when nothing else mattered, when your soul was lifted and you felt the joy and freedom none else can give. Just sweet fellowship with God. Well it's not impossible. It can take place anywhere. Cos it's about YOUR attitude when you worship. YOUR response, desperation, attitude. Seek Him and you WILL find. Don't stop knocking that door. Get desperate. He's waiting.

Counseling Studies

For the past two weeks, EstherTC and I attended a Basic Counseling Skills Course at BCM in hopes to polish our counseling skills so that we might help those we so-call "counsel". None that I know of is official.

I was pretty on fire for it until about the 3rd class. I began to have second and third thoughts. I wasn't sure if this is for me. Wasn't sure if I cared enough for people. It sounded too hard.

But nevertheless, we slogged through the ungodly hours, coffees, classes and assignments. I figured I might as well finish what I started. After which I will slowly consider if I'd want to take the entire diploma, which logically sounds about right. But an entire diploma sounds..... too tough right about now.

My faithful nescafe ice latte - without which I would not be awake those early mornings.

The days in BCM did bring forth a sense of enlightenment, as I observed the life and people there - and noted that it is not as scary as I thought it would be. People are still people wherever you find them. I don't know where the fear came from. Perhaps it was a preconceive notion planted from somewhere. However, I will not attempt to speak falsely on God's anointed ones. I sorta enjoy myself but I will never dare go at it alone.

People

David's bday
Ok. David decided to cook for us to celebrate his birthday (on Esther's birthday) which we looked forward to. It has been 3 yrs since we had a taste of his food. Did I mention he's a good chef? But it was a cozy little dinner with a few people - upon David's invite - where we ate till our stomach was going to explode.

Here's david still cooking, trying to turn on the oven, and finally got mommy's help:

Madam Kwan with Esther
After class one day, EstherTC and I decided to head to megamall to find me a pair of silver earrings to test out a theory she had about my ears. Figured its worth checking out. We had lunch at the much-talked-about Madam Kwan's. Woh, a plate of nasi lemak was so expensive. But at least now I can say "been there, done that!"



Juliana's farewell
Juliana - our Missionettes sponsor of young was about to marry and migrate. Or rather migrate and marry. The other girls of my bath could not make it to the farewell so I dutifully went. Of course I would go! It was far too long since we had a chat. And that nite we caught up on so many years. Some of the kids (her current Missionette's sutdents) were there as well. I could see in her eyes the emotions of having seen me grow up as I now see some of the kids grow up. Simply heart warming.

Life is all about the people in it, ain't it? What other reason can there be? Whether it be rekindling past ones, retaining present ones, building new bonds. People are what make life worth living. I know the classic answer should be "God". But even Jesus lived and died for people. And as we live this life, we live with that example - that what mattered to Him most, was people.

Eye of God

As I was preparing the sermon slides for pastor (as I'm accustomed to do), I came across something interesting. I'm not an avid fan of astronomy but I still find it fascinating enough. Enough to wonder at God's marvelous creation - the sun, and the stars that fills the universe. Google 'eye of God' and you will find the below image:

Eye of God - NGC 7293, the Helix Nebula

A website describes it this way: It's the closest planetary nebula to earth, "only" 650 light-years away, out toward the constellation Aquarius. Its "pupil" and corona are formed by fluorescing gases expelled from its imploding central star, which will finallly explode and die as a white dwarf. It was first caught by the Hubble Orbiting Space Telescope in 2003 and was originally discovered by Karl Ludwig Harding. Check it out on Wikipedia and be blown away. The "Eye of God" is also commonly known as the "Eye of Sauron" by some because it reminds some of Sauron's evil eye in the "Lord of the Rings" films.

God is watching us!

Chinese New Year

It's CNY again and I will resist the temptation to go through the whole culture thing or the countdown. But every CNY is different from the last. And yes, we all do love Chinese New Years - for the family and friends, for the food, for the new dresses and deco, for the money.

I would write all about the 15days of new year. But that will take far too long and i'm far too lazy. It was fun hanging out with family whom we meet only like once a year, friends that get together to share some laughter and get fat. This year we opened our home to feed family and friends with our traditional "soh mee". There I was helping to cook and serve like a proper hostess. Now this is the awesome "soh mee".

Couple days later it was opened to the youth as we've started to do. Some days were boring, some days I don't even have time to sit. But that's CNY. =)

There's so many nice pics we took this year that captured the spirit of the week. But I can't put them all here. So below's the link:

CNY pics
Aspirers CNY OpenHouse

Valentine's 08

Did you see Google this Valentine's? (their time, of course, not Malaysian time).


It is so heart warming. I like this idea of Valentines, where an old couple is seen still very much in love (as they once did when they first started). To imagine that love could last so long and still be so beautiful. Isn't that what we all really want? Not all the romance of today, but the warm love that has battered all kinds of storm?

Tagged

I just realised I was tagged by Yew Fong at this post.

1. Each blogger must post these rules.
2.Each Blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things post these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and read your blog.
8 random facts about me:
(random means the first thing that comes to mind right?)

1. I generally don't like crowds. Lately I've been saying that a lot. Large large crowds tend to freak me.
   
2. I love to travel to visit places and still would like to have the opportunity to do so.
   
3. I've been telling myself I need to organize all 3 hard disk space of mine and do some "cleaning" in my computers but have yet to find the time. It's going to take MAJOR time.
4. I need to start being more discipline. I've been telling myself that since forever. But my life's getting ahead of me and i REALLY need to get to it.
   
5. There are two thing that are constantly and forever at the top of my head. One of which is Aspirers/youth.
   
6. I have sensitive skin. Don't have allergies but in it's own ways still sensitive.
7. I need 8 hours of sleep to be fully functional. Any less can be catastrophic in due time.
   
8. By now, I have already lost my attention span to think of another random fact.
   

My Friend's Dramatic Story

Jason Gan was telling us about his band's dramatic experience recently while Nic Chin encouraged us to hear. It was one of those cop robber high speed car chase kinda thing that you see on TV. But this is real life. Read the full story here. Seriously read it. Joel Vijay narrated the written version just as animatedly.

The entire table was so captivated by his animated story telling skills. Not sure if we were stunned or amazed.

Speaking of which, the band spoken about is the fourletterstory in which 3 of its members are my ex-CF members. Proud to know a band? wohoo! They do gigs and recordings. Sounds like life in the limelight alright. Sample music on the blog itself. Feel free to browse.

Wahseh I'm promoting for you guys, you should give some fee wei.

ICF reunion

It's been so very long since we met up with everyone. Part of me wonder if it'll be the same or will everyone just be obliging and polite. I was right in both aspects.

I think they tried to call everyone but finally with about 14 of us squeezing on 1 table, we had our chinese new year dinner in honour of Delia, whom had jus returned from the Land Down Under for a visit. Don't ask me how we did it. It was crowded but cozy. So here we are...

Joining us, was the brand new couple, Mr. and Mrs. Irwin Loo.

It was like a superstar moment as everyone lingered outside the restaurant and taking pictures, not wanting to leave. Perhaps we were thinking the same thing: who knows when the next time will be?

For more pictures, check out MY ALBUM and SHANTI'S ALBUM

All About Sex

Wohh this title sounds like I wanna talk bout sex! Yea that's the word that gets attention, right?

We had a workshop for the youth to talk all about sex. In the world that we live in, we cant escape or shelf that word any longer. Even more as Christians, subjects about it should not be treated with contempt. After all, they're getting a whole lot of it outside. And that is only skewing our minds with the wrong ideas, images, beliefs, and values about what God made beautiful in the very first place. There are so many rising issues these days, in a world where noone knows what is right and wrong anymore. In a world where children are not excluded from the terrors and evils of men.

In respond to that, Aspirers decided to do something. We got amateurs to read up and talk to the youth. They were broken up in groups according to gender and age. We covered topics from biology parts to consequences of sex; contentedness to variations of sexual acts; masturbation to homosexuality; undergarments to testosterone; and so much more. And even after that we felt that there were so much more we could cover. Maybe next time we could call in professionals.

But I guess at the end of the day, it is our prayer that they'd learn something and hold it close to them. At the end of the day, they'd keep themselves pure and holy for the Lord their God. We may not know much but we're ready to learn up to be able to guide, admit we don't know and walk on this journey together with them. Life is a journey. And at least they know this is not something we keep under wraps and wont want to talk about. Cos like everything else, it's just another topic - a very real one.

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General News

Was KFC the other day and saw this:



It sounds more like KFC is getting desperate and running out of ideas. What has curry puff gotta do with chicken? To bank in on local delicacies like that. The nerve! Has anyone ever tried it though?

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On other news:
Talk show house and stand up comedian Ellen Degeneres has been said to dethrone Oprah Winfrey as the most watched talk show in America.



I have great respect for Oprah and for she has done for her society. She uses her popularity and wealth to influence her society and make a difference. I don't know much of what Ellen has done to deserve to be the next big thing (youth probably) but she's got a lot to catch up with. Oprah, you still the best!

Trip to KL

Was up in KL with Derrick and David to basically (finally) get the present I promised David last year. At the shop (name escapes me) while the guys were immerse in all the instruments and gears, I did the same. What else was there to do?

I came across this Hello Kitty guitar. How strange! I wonder who will buy it. A female rocker?



Met up with Selwyn later. I finally stepped foot into Pavilion for the first time. And the sight was an attention-stealer. The foyer had steps leading down into the center court. The decorations were all in place for chinese new year. Although the setting reminds me of the Gardens. Places for the upper class, you know? Not somewhere I can afford.

Jessica's Operation

We visited Jessica at UH only the other day to see how she was doing. She had an operation on her knee area to remove her growth as well as fix her broken knee. I forgot exactly what the medical procedure was.



Her stitches were 7 or was it 9 inches long. Covered with staples and protected with a sheet of.. plastic?

Prayer request:
Pray for speedy recovery. Doc says it'll take 3 months and painful physiotherapy of so till she is off her crutches.

Aspirers Retreat 2008: LIVE

Aspirers Retreat is one of THE events of the year. It is much anticipated, much waited for and all that. However, after so many years of handling this kinda of retreat, one wouldn't be surprise that the committee is a tad bit tired and less excited. More like stressed.

And so this year around Retreat came as usual, earlier than usual dates. Thus, more cause for anxiety. We were late in our planning, lethargic in our execution, lazy in our tasks. It wasn't until 2 weeks prior to Retreat that we bucked up with the sudden realization of what is happening. Argh! I'm a bad example when it comes to timing and procrastination. This time around, I felt a heavier sense of burden on my shoulder. Perhaps it was the pressure, perhaps it was the disorganization, perhaps it was simply tiredness, perhaps it was spiritual attack. Nevertheless, it was a worser feeling than I have ever felt before. I felt more alone then ever. I felt like declaring that Retreat be postponed! Imagine that. But I had reasons:

• Most plannings were NOT settled. From publicity to activities; worship schedule to venue.
• The resort that we were to stay with have not confirmed more than half of the things, with their staff being on leave all the time.
  
• 2 weeks before the retreat and registration was at an all time LOW. (far lower than the number I guaranteed the resort)
• None of the activities are concrete or totally ready
• We have far fewer leaders to just be around, watch over, help around, etc. as compared to previous years.
• I really wasn't feeling up to it.
  

So we gathered the organizing committee and all the leaders. I lectured, apologized, encouraged, hopefully motivated them as well. There was so much to do and so little time. If we really mean it to go well, that is. And most of all we needed God more than ever. Decided to begin praying and fasting to see God move. I said "God, won't you show your mighty power. If your move mightier than ever before this camp, it will only go to testify that you are not constrained by the things we plan and that a great camp is when YOU move." And so I lost my days and nights to the retreat preparation. Planning a camp is one thing, mentoring and guiding others to learn the trade is another. The latter one being the harder one. Yet, it was more than necessary.

I will spare the details of the camp. You can read them on Larissa's and Jian's blog.

But God proved faithful. He never fails. Though a lot of things were falling apart and I felt worse than ever, though I only wanted to cry at His feet from probably exhaustion, disappointment and heartbreak, God proves to be faithful. From the very first night, the very first worship session, there was a sense of deep longing and desperation for more of God. You could feel the energy in the air. The voices crying out. And that night itself, more than half the campers walk out in response to the altar call. Took me by surprise and drove me to tears. You know it when you work so hard doing what you humanly can but at the end of the day it's the part you cannot control that you want to see the most. We can only set our sails to catch the wind of Heaven. After all is said and done, it is their heart and God's move. And that, THAT is what it's all about. It's about the lives that are touched, changed, sold out to Him.

God moved in such a mighty way this camp, more than He ever did in any previous camp. The speaker was prophetic and had a message for anyone who had the guts to walk across the carpet - symbolizing the stand tat he/she is taking to live for Jesus. And so they went, one by one. The second night dragged the longest because God's move was so powerful. whether you're up front at the altar or alone at the back, God was doing His work in hearts and lives. I can't help but focus on these moments alone. These precious moments. What could be better? On a personal note, God spoke right into my heart. He told me what I needed to hear. And truly truly I will serve no other God!

Sure we had fun, sure we made friends and all that. Sure it was all good, and loud and fun. But the best part was His presence. The best part was when God spoke into our lives and we're never the same again. Aspirers! Do you see that revival has begun? Can you feel the mountains tremble? It's the sound of revival! Do you hear it?

Ok OK! I'll stop here. =) Check out MORE PICTURES as you would PREFER it in the first place on Derrick's Flickr Album. Read Aaron's version in the coming Agapeline issue. The DVD will be available for sale soon.

Talk about event of the year =)

More Saturday adventures

It was another Saturday morning to conquer the Kepayang hill. Johanna vowed she will make it this time and did. I was the one that turned up late... again.

However, Jo never fails to amuse me. It's something about her quirkiness. She managed to excitedly walk forward in the mudded terrain and into what appeared to be quick-sand-like mud. As you can see...

There goes her morning walking in squishy mud filled shoe.

Just felt like sharing this incident =)

Resolutions

It's a brand new year, a chance to let go of the past and do things afresh. Every new year brings new possibilities. Yes, I'm one of those that believes in a new year bringing all things new. In fact, Bible says every day is a new day.

And so I'm trying to make and keep resolutions: (not in any order)

1. To read more of God's word, pray more, spend more time with the lover of my soul. I wanna be broken from what breaks His heart.
   
2. To invest in learning more about how to become a better leader, to be more effective in ministry and as a disciple myself.
   
3. To wake up earlier, exercise more consistently, balance work and play, be more hardworking to keep my room and car.
4. To be a better daughter, a better friend, a better sister, and all that. Relationships are important to guard and preserve and improve. They define who you are.
   
5. To strive to live my life to make the right choices, at the right time. Not allowing emotions and selfish desires to get the better of me, but to always choose to do the right thing, especially in the sight of God.

At least these are the things within my control. Those that are not I leave it in the hands of the One that holds my future. God is too wise to be mistaken. I know there is no running away, no moving off, no ignoring or turning a deaf ear for me. I know I'm here to stay and there's a reason to every rhyme. And I trust that God will carry me through the season cos He is faithful.

On what I hope to see happen, however:

1. I wanna see the youth in Aspirers to overcome the circumstances in their lives, to care for people beyond what is expected of a youth, rise up to take their place in the faith.
2. I also want to see college student rising up to belong and take their place and make a difference in their college or universities and in their home church.
   
3. I wanna see different ministries move into a new level of faith and dedication and service unto God as we begin to see God use us at a higher level to extend His kingdom - i mean, that's what it's all about right?
4. I wanna see adults get out of their comfort zones, stop complaining and grumbling, set Godly examples for the new and younger ones, learn to reach out beyond their own circle, see a purpose.
5. I hope to see more of my peers and friends start to find a way to fit and belong in this church and the world they live in, partners they could build a home with. God only knows what goes through the heart and mind of a young adult, stuck in between worlds of possibilities.
   

I have only one deep seethed desire that I pray God will grant me though. It's been with me so long. And I'll be patient enough to wait.

Ending the Year

The year ended with friends and more friends. I guess at the end of every year, every season, every life, you think of those dearest to you. We reflect on our life and long for what we love. Many times along life we just tend to forget what matters most. I'm sure you've heard this many times, but isn't it ironic that we treat the ones we love with contempt? And our arrogance far too big, sometimes, for us to mend back what would matter most. And we let it slip away. Or we refuse to mend our relationships and our ways.

My year ended with hanging out with friends (at my home on Winne's birthday); into the wee hours of the night at aunty Jo's place (playing games like ginrami, taboo and boggle) that same night; and at the Pang's residence after the watchnight service right into the early morning of the New Year.

One may wonder if we'll ever get sick of seeing each other. I guess not.

Oh, I have absolutely no pictures of these events.
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Pics update:

• Winne's birthday gathering.

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Feb 6th, 2008 update:

Honestly, since I took forever to update December's blog. i've forgotten half the events that took place this month. It was such a busy month I almost had no time to do anything else. Of course, this spilled over to the entire month of January 2008 as well.

Weddings

This is a month of weddings, tying knots, starting a new life. I had three to attend. So for those who don't know, here's me announcing that the below people are MARRIED.

Rejina Premkumar
She looked lovely in her extra long veil as she walked down the aisle. Unfortunately I do not have pictures of the bride and groom. The dinner was packed and a little unorganized if I must say so. Save for the awesome band playing, the rest of the dinner was nothing out of the ordinary. However, Elaine found a way to entertain herself:


Irwin Lo
I travelled all the way to Subang to witness and participate in his fancy wedding dinner in one the most beautiful and elegant ballroom I've ever seen. The picture on the left is the entrance to the walkway that leads to the ballroom. This was taken by a camera phone. The wedding itself was unique in its program and presentations. The song by Irwin, the ice breaker *ahem* and erm.. competition? Ideas I could use in the future *wink*

And of course, here we have a mini ICFers reunion. It's been so long. As awkward as Alice's ice breaker (or main program as she claims) was, it was practical to update each other's status. Phew! I was last and it never reached my turn. But that's that.

Ong Li Lian
And closer to home, here's another wedding I attended. I had to bring my grandma as well and I thank God I wasn't there alone. I met a long lost friend who has quite a companion throughout the dinner - a dinner who might have otherwise been dull and lonely. My strong believe about friendship's responsibility and loyalty has driven me to be there in such an occasion. After all, let us not forget the golden rule.

Oh and here's Li Lin who looks absolutely fab! Really.

Dad's 50th Birthday

Mummy and daddy are 50 this year.

Was I not supposed to announce this?

It's suppose to be big but daddy doesn't like big crowds or big hoo-hahs like what we would have preferred to plan. But like me ( I guess) the best kinda celebrations are those with close family and friends. That's good enough.

So we went to a place we felt would be different from dad's ordinary. I mean we only get to live this life once and why not enjoy all that it has to offer? So we brought daddy to Euro Deli:- world of pork

But like every family, we have our good times, our arguments; we have our favourites and what we just can't stand. It's all about perspective - do you see the difference that makes us unique and complement each other, or the similarity that only proves we are family. Sometimes we forget what family means. But as 'Lilo & Stitch' reminds me - family means 'Ohana' and Ohana means nobody gets left behind. Blood is thicker than water.

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What holds a family together? Blood, responsibility, love? What drives apart? Selfish ambitions, jealousy, greed? Let us make sure that which pulls us together will always be stronger than that which drives us apart. Cos at the end of the day, families does matter. It's part of your identity - of who you are. You can't get rid of that.

Lack of Snooze

Symptoms of lack of sleep
Anne's version:
(anything less than 7hrs is TOO little)

1. uncordinated body movements
2. which leads to physical harm / injuries
3. constant clouded feeling or headache
4. muscle ache and in exhaustion and/or easily chilled
5. inability to think as sharply or alertly. ideas and creativity are slow to come.
6. no mood
7. prone to sickness...
   

And after a prolonged time, you'd begin to loose the need to replace the lack of sleep. You loose the ability to sleep longer. And the affect becomes permanent.......