Psalm 94:18-19

When I said, "My foot is slipping,"
your unfailing love, Lord, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought me joy. Psalm 94:18-19

Repeat that again. Yea and again and again.

God, even when I forget you and attempt to do life in my own strength, when I fall... it is YOU, O Lord, who is upholding me with your right hand. You won't let me fall apart. When my mind is clouded by anxiety and my heart crowded with worry... it is You who give me strength, ideas, wisdom, and everything else.... holding me together in one piece. I look to You and recognize that it is You, O Lord - my Salvation.

Happy CNY!

It's that season again... where uncles and aunties ask me the important question in their mind... "when?" I guess it's a 'right' for an aunt and uncle. And I've learnt to say "soon" to stop them short of pursuing to ask why or give some kind of advise about what I should do about it. This year tho, one uncle tried a different comment, "you girls need to hurry up, it's getting expensive". Hmm...

I actually enjoy entertaining... I'd like to think I'm a decent hostess most of the time. You wouldn't guess that I'm actually an introvert. But this year I went overboard thinking I was some heroine... young one. With camp around the corner and plenty of family obligations on my hand, I was driven to exhaustion. I didn't get to really hang out with friends as I would have prefered. I barely even left my house. =( sigh. my brains were screaming that I stop.
Oh and I have to record our Tan family's first ever CNY get-together. We decided that our generation had to do something to keep the family together. And so we had our first our BBQ session at my place. Master Chef Kwok, Asst Chet Cat and Asst Chef Ming were hard at work making sure we were not short on food to fill our tummy. Although I almost fainted from exhaustion, I think this was a good start to something big. Some things are worth fighting for. Some things are worth exhausting yourself over, right?


Updates: (on 28th Feb - chap goh meh)
After returning for camp, we hear that our family has decided to take a trip up to Genting to watch the fireworks for Chap Goh Meh. Without mentioning the delay and the crowd and getting lost... we did manage to catch a glimpse of the fireworks... And I tested my camera power on it.

Happy Chinese New Year people and have a roaring year ahead!

Drying up like a prune

I was coerced into seeing a dermatologist about my acne condition. i didn't think it was that crucial but at the same time. I might want nice skin too.Age does that to you. This is a bottle of my pills for one month. Apparently I need to be on it for 6 months or so.


Doctor: You'll experience dryness and bleeding on your lips.
Me: *ouch* ok
Doctor: just use lip moisturizer will do. I'll put one in the pack for you.
Me: ok i can deal with that.
Doctor: are you getting married anytime soon?
Me: What?
Doctor: are u engaged or anything like that?
Me: Erm no...
Doctor: Alright. Remember that you should not get pregnant during the course of this medication. It will deform your baby.
Me: Just during the course of medication right? after that no prob right?
Doctor: RIght. But remember DON'T get pregnant.
Me: Trust me, I won't
Doctor: (after explaining other stuff) remember don't give anyone that might get pregnant and be very careful that you don't get pregnant!
Me: I really won't.
My mom: She doesn't even have a boyfriend lah!
Me: -_-"

So here I am, dry and skin itching. Slight bleeding and stuff. Sigh. It's quite irritating.

my new toy and american idol

After much contemplation, I decided to get a new camera. But as usual, I took too long to contemplate. Fortunately for me, I have friends who put me on the right path and doesn't understand hesitation and delay. So I was on my way up to KL... to get my camera. Thanks friends. =)



It's a new toy! Should I name it? I got to test out the camera later at Midvalley when we bumped into the live appearance of Kris Allen, American Idol. It was too far and too many people to get a good look.
Nevertheless, I think his photoshoped poster looks better. =)



The crowd was insane. The girls were screaming and the DJs were encouraging them. But I guess all that is needed. However, we did not bother to hang around that long to observe a loooooooooooong line of people going up to get an authograph and try to grab his hands a little longer. hahaha..

Small Smiles

It was one of those nights... days when you feel like you've hit a wall in your life. A whole lump was welling up in my throat heart and I wanted to burst into tears break down or something. I couldn't tell exactly what it was that was pushing me to the edge or causing an emotional upheaval. But then again it isn't new for me. But it was one of those days...

And I had just about to throw something and hope it breaks. Or maybe find an empty hall to yell. Or something. And there was noone to reach out too...

And then driving back, I saw a huge yellow moon bursting out from the sky. It was really really huge. I like moons to begin with. A huge 3/4 moon starring out of the sky was abnormal and absolutely wonderful. You might think I'm crazy but it made my day. I stopped my car a couple of times in the middle of the street, hope no car bangs me, stretched out my arm to take pictures.

This is a bad picture. But can you see the yellow spot that does not look like a street lamp?



But it's funny that at a time like this. It was like a little bone God is throwing at me to keep me happy. It's the small things. That actually did it for me. God you're so cute!

We gotta keep singing after all...