Aspirers Camp 2010

Aspirers Camp 2010: Let It Shine

26-28th February 2010
Golden Straits Villa, P.D.
Ps. Gideon Lee

A trip down memory lane...
It feels like a million lightyears away yet fresh in my mind the first aspirers camp I ever coordinated. Of course, then, we called in aspirers retreat. Back then also, I almost killed myself executing the camp. I remember it was in Peace Haven, Genting. And I remember getting sunburns and a migraine. I had every detail of the camp on my fingertips and I drove myself to give more than all. The camps that followed wasn't all that different. I was young and I thought I was superwomen.

Passing it on...
For some years now, we've been appointing younger and younger committees to take up the responsibility and ownership of camp. We believe in training the younger generation and empowering them with positions. Of course, there were many moments of disappointments for me. Sometimes I wondered if it's because my standards were high but then again what challenge could there possibly be if the standards were not high? But as the older members start to disappear, raising the younger ones got more urgent.

The difference this time...
This time I was starting to feel my age catch up. I'm serious. And it's not funny. I need to find a way to keep my energy up cos youth ministry will always require that. And fore seeing more people leaving, I knew it was now or never. They had to rise up! I was more frustrated than ever. Oh God, I prayed, plant a sense of ownership in their heart and a burden for this ministry! There was no other way.

And I think that did it. I think they sensed it too. During the final stretched pre camp and during the camp, I saw the leaders and committee begin to pull their weight. Without much complain or whining. They were growing up. I knew it was time to let go and just trust them. And so I did. And as I was told, they would amaze me. Although I did breakdown into tears thinking too ahead of myself and fearing the inevitable, yes the inevitable, fearing I won't have the strength I need, fearing it won't work out cos of my failure to raise the younger generation.


And then God spoke...
Have you ever had moments in your life that you absolutely need (want) to hear something from God? It was that for me. I've felt that He's been too silent about a lot of things that I was beginning to loose my way. I needed to know. So when Ps. Gideon gave me the word from God and it totally hit home, I could not take it anymore. There was no way he could have known what I've been talking to God about. (I'm of course not about to tell you ;) what it's about) But I'm still trying to digest some of it and trying to hang on to His promises.

It gave me some assurance and peace about areas in my life. And it reminded me again how much God loves me though I cannot imagine why. And it was oh so important to me knowing that He saw me and knows me and was there when I thought He'd forgotten me. That was me. This isn't going to be just another mountain experience. I'll keep it close to my heart and I'll carry on for as long as He needs me to. I will be strong and brave and won't turn back.

What about you?